Since Drew and I left Japan and came back to America, I’ve been thinking about one thought over and over again. With the more comfort and belongings we have, the harder it becomes to fully rely on God.
Drew and I felt stuck in fall of 2011 and we didn’t know what God wanted us to do. We decided to get rid of everything we had (like Jesus’ disciple did. Luke 5:11), come back to America and start over. It was hard for me to do that at first. We knew we were going back to Japan eventually so if we got rid of our stuff, we would have to buy everything again.
However, we felt that if we kept all our stuff, we couldn’t concentrate on discerning God’s will. The constant reminder of all we had in Japan would influence our decision-making. We thought we would feel that we needed to go back to Japan soon because it cost a lot of money for storage in Japan. Or our thinking could have been swayed by the location of our belongs thinking things like maybe we shouldn’t go this place cause it’s far away from where our stuff is, even God wanted us to, e.t.c.
Although I felt sad, worried and a little miserable, after spending 6 months with just enough stuff to fill 2 big suit cases I feel much lighter and am able to rely on God more deeply.
I’m very thankful to God for this opportunity to learn and grow, and I thank those who have helped us to live with much love and compassion. We are so blessed!!
Now I worry that when we go back to Japan and settle down again that I will return to the convenience of stuff instead of relying on God. I really want to remember this awesome experience God gave us and I will try not to rely on things and instead trust in the God I serve.